Sing, sing a song, sing out loud, sing out strong....

(pardon the glare! and the dust!! it REALLY is not as dusty as it looks....I hope)

In a post last year, I mentioned that I had been on Weight Watchers and that I had gained back half of what I had lost. I even was bold enough to post my weight in a sidebar and track my progress in what I was going to loose (again). You'll notice that sidebar has been removed, because I now have gained ALL the weight back that I lost on Weight Watchers. I fell off the wagon big time. I will not be so bold again as to post my weight. Weight Watchers Online has that information....I like for my blog to be my happy place, so I'm not posting that big ugly here again ;)

In getting back on the wagon, I've started exercising again. The treadmill is my friend. I do find though that when I do get on the treadmill that if I can make it the first 5 minutes, I'm in for the journey, and then I usually don't want to get off. Why? Because when I walk, I listen to music, and I sing. And I'm just telling you that despite what my family says and despite their laughs and giggles, I know that on the treadmill I sing reeeeeeeeal gooooooood ;) It is quite funny to hear someone randomly burst out into song. I've heard The Bob do it once on the treadmill, and it is really funny. Anyway, I have loaded my favorites, and when Casting Crowns sings Until the Whole World Hears, I just have to sing with them. I know they appreciate it. That song just makes me want to charge hell with a water gun...Jesus going before me of course :) When Travis Cottrell sings Jesus is the Lord, I'm compelled to sing with him. We harmonize quite well together. I know it. I just know it.

Seriously, while I know it doesn't sound pretty, I do sing from my heart. It is not uncommon for me to tear up while walking...and not from pain from the exercise....but because I'm overwhelmed with His grace and love. It is not uncommon for me to raise my hands (weights included) in praise to Him. And so I have found my time with Mr. Treadmill is not only good for my body, but also my spirit.

Still struggling...

I've put this post off long enough. As I told Heather the other day, I'm just going to have to take a big gulp and swallow my pride. No sense in dodging it and trying to ignore it forever. I think doing that would probably be just failure added to failure. You know that little weight tracker on the right side bar? The one under our family pictures. Well, had I used it as I said that I would, it would show numbers going down instead of the numbers going up. That's why I just haven't been putting anything there at all. Just dodging and skirting. So, I've seen that I can't be left to my own devices, and once again I'm visiting The Lady at the Scale at Weight Watchers. It is helping and this past week I was down 2 lbs. So, I'm back on track. I think....I hope...we will see Friday when I visit The Lady at the Scale again.

It's only 10 lbs that need to come off, so why is it so hard?

Expected.

Well, today is the day. That day I'm supposed to weigh in. For some reason I thought this would be a great thing to do? Oh yeah. Accountability. And my results are not what I wanted, but what I expected. Actually I expected less, so I guess I should be glad for a 1.6 lb. weight loss. This week I lost 1.6 lbs. I have to explain here that I don't feel like I've really done well unless I lose at least 2 to 3 lbs a week. A minimum of 2. I know that to do well I'm going to have to face my nemesis.......

I have a real love/hate relationship with that thing. And please do notice that I have no curtains or window treatments other than the blinds. I am decor challenged that way. Anyway, I'm off to walk a mile or two. No pain, no gain. Or loss. Whatever.

Oh, and I'm changing my day to weigh to Friday. When I was officially doing Weight Watchers and facing the lady at the scale, I weighed on Fridays. That worked really well for me. So, you won't have to endure another weigh in post for about a week and a half :)

My Struggle...

I think I might be a tad bit crazy for putting this out there for everyone to see. But I've decided I've got to get some accountability or I'm never going to get what I struggle with under control. I struggle with..........food. My struggles with food come. And they go. I thought when I joined Weight Watchers last fall that the struggle would be gone for good. Wrong. Once I reached goal, I made the mistake of stopping my weekly weigh-in. And slowly over the last 3 months, I have gained back (gulp!) 10 lbs. Oh. my. goodness. How did I let this happen? So, I don't want to pay all the fees to sign back up with Weight Watchers. And I know how to do it. And I subscribe to their Online stuff and am already paying for that service. All I need is the lady at the scale. The lady at the scale who would weekly look at me, look at the scale, look at me on the scale, and write down my weight. Every single week. That motivated me more than the meetings. Way more than the meetings. The meeting was pretty much just a pep talk. For me, it was all about being accountable to the lady at the scale. The few people reading this blog will now become the lady at the scale. Didn't you always want to be the lady at the scale? I'm weighing on Tuesday's and on my Weight Watcher's Online Profile I had to record the ugly weight of.......oh, this is painful.....157.7. There. There it is. I had lost down to 147 way back in February. So, now I'm 10 lbs up...almost 11! Ugh. So, if you look to the right just under my family photos, I'm tracking my weight. I'll put down my weigh-in every Tuesday. Thanks for being the lady at the scale.